See no evil, hear no evil.
I couldn't sleep last night. As hard as I tried to shut it out, I kept thinking about what I read that morning.It was not difficult to find the web-video of the execution of US hostage Eugene Jack Armstrong on the Internet -- but it was almost impossible to watch... the Jordanian-born al-Zarqawi steps forward, knocks the quivering prisoner over and begins sawing at the neck with a large knife, knocking off his blindfold. The choked screaming made as the blade tears into Mr Armstrong's now blood-filled throat is horrifyingly audible.
[Daily Telegraph 23/9/04 p35]
This mental picture of blood-choked screaming tormented me all night. Even now when I think about it I get goosebumps and a sinking feeling in my stomach. I didn't even want to write about it cos I wanted to forget it; forget this scene in my head, forget about how there are many more hostages who are witnessing such atrocities now as I type, acted out on their friends, their neighbours. I just don't want to think about it; I just wanted to get a good night's sleep before the ward round this morning.
Isn't that awful? Terrible terrible things happen in this world, and our solution is denial. Don't think about it too much, cos it's too depressing. It is depressing, but pretending that it didn't happen, if anything I think it insults the victims of these crimes. A lot of people say, well why can yourself all upset about it when there is nothing you can do? I know what they are saying, but I don't agree. Surely apathy cannot be the solution to evil. If anything it probably condones evil, allows it to continue.
So I'm writing about it even though I feel sick now remembering it all again. I should feel sick, because it is a sickening act. You might feel sick reading this post, but I don't apologise. We need to pray and we need to care. We need to feel sick.
posted by me. @ 12:20 AM
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